100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 100

Day 100 - A picture of you smiling

I think I love this picture for the simple fact that I don't remember it being taken.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 99

Day 99 - A picture that was first on your facebook

Most of my pictures were on Facbook before they were anywhere else, but I chose this one before I love it and it's also one of the pictures on my calendar for this month. This is Teresa, she's one of my GH Moms and she is AWESOME. I miss her like crazy :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 98

Day 98 - A picture of you and your friends out somewhere

We were out in LA, if that counts. I just couldn't go without putting this picture up. It makes me giggle every time I see it.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 97

Day 97 - A picture of something you no longer have

An obsession with Kelly Clarkson.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 96

Day 96 - A picture of your favorite movie

Absolute favorite movie. I remember renting it from the library every time we went in. I could seriously watch this movie over and over and over and never get tired of it. Even when I was 4.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 95

Day 95 - A picture of you on a plane

Leaving LA. We wouldn't talk to each other because we knew we would cry.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 94

Day 94 - A picture of you and your friends eating

This picture makes me giggle every time I look at it.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 93

Day 93 - A picture of your favorite board game

Ever since I was a little kid I've loved this game.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 92

Day 92 - A picture of your school

Seminary Hall :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 91

Day 91 - A picture of you and your friends playing a game

I'm not in this particular picture, but I did play. This is the Malawian version of a cross between Duck, Duck, Goose and Red Rover. Pretty fun if you ask me, especially when you have all of the village kids and a handful of college kids to play with :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 90

Day 90 - A picture of you wearing your favorite color

Purple :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 89

Day 89 - A picture of you at a hotel

With my girls :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 88

Day 88 - A picture of your dream car

Gun Metal Nissan Z (non-convertible). I've wanted one of these cars for well over a year now, and it only affirmed it when I found out one of my favorite people drives one :) Hers is black on black convertible though. It's taken me awhile to decide on a color because they're so pretty! But I finally decided on this color (or maybe pearl white).

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 87

Day 87 - A picture of someone you grew up with

My Amby.

We've been best friends since we were 7. Our friendship was more like a sisterhood. We used to fight and bicker all the time, even well into our teens. But now we're in our twenties, we've had a few disagreements here and there, but if we had the same opinion on everything, life wouldn't be fun. And did I mention she's the mom to my two youngest (adorable) nieces Yazzie and Aly? Yep :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 86

Day 86 - A picture of someone who helps you with school

Sawyer

Okay, so he obviously doesn't help me, but neither does anyone else. They don't know this stuff well enough to help me.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 85

Day 85 - A picture of your favorite holiday

4th of July. Hands down. Anytime I get to set stuff on fire and not get in trouble for it, it's a good day :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 84

Day 84 - A picture of a school project

You didn't say it had to be MY school project. The only school project (other than oral presentations) that I have ever done, I don't have pictures of. It was a MacBeth project where we had to make a witch from the story and put our face on it, turned out pretty funny.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 83

Day 83 - A picture of you and a teammate

Me & Amby

So this isn't us on a team, but we were the dream team in Keota FCCLA Star Event history. We both did Star Events with other teammates and never made it to nationals. The two years we did a Star Event together, we not only made it to nationals, but we go GOLD. This was at nationals after our senior year :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 82

Day 82 - A picture of someone you love asleep

My Lulu.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 81

Day 81 - A picture of you with a character

Does this count? She plays a character on General Hospital :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 80

Day 80 - A picture of you and someone you love being silly

Me and Lulu :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 79

Day 79 - A picture of you in the water

At Lake Malawi in Africa :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 78

Day 78 - A picture of you in the dark

With Chrissie and Summer. This is how we waste time while we wait on Ronnie to quit talking so we can go to Jerry's.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 77

Day 77 - A picture of you and friends making silly faces

:)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 76

Day 76 - A picture of you drinking something

Watahhh :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 75

Day 75 - A picture of you receiving a reward

I don't really have one, but I was on the President's Honor Roll the last two semesters :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 74

Day 74 - A picture taken professionally

Uh, I don't think I have anything more recent. Not on the computer at least.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 73

Day 73 - A picture of you somewhere warm

Warm? It was 108 degrees at 8 PM on this night. We were a bunch of sweaty people.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 72

Day 72 - A picture of you with unbelievable scenery

Los Angeles :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 71

Day 71 - A picture of you with people you work with

I don't think I have a picture WITH Caiden other than the one I posted the other day, so I'll just post a picture of him. He's my little boss :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 70

Day 70 - A picture of someone you don't go a day without talking to

Summer Kay

If we go a day without talking, it throws life off balance a little. Even if it's just "hey, how's your day going?" We rarely go a day without talking.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 69

Day 69 - A picture of a crazy night out

Taco Bell at the end of a crazy night out with Jesse and Nea :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 68

Day 68 - A picture of you outside

In Santa Monica, July 2010 with Kinsey McCall :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 67

Day 67 - A picture of you falling

How about a picture of me trying not to fall? I'm terrified of falling (not heights, just falling), so I usually don't put myself in situations where I could fall, unless it's like this where it's just a couple of feet.

Wondering why we're all wearing highlighter yellow shirts and looking kinda filthy? We were helping clean up the Bolivar Peninsula (near Galveston, TX) after Hurricane Ike. This is how I spent Spring Break 2009, cleaning up what was left of people's homes and eating sack lunches on the beach almost everyday. If you can't tell, we had a blast doing so.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 66

Day 66 - A picture of you doing something childish

Playing in the storm drain. Once again, at the park with Racey. Did I mention how much I miss being able to do this?

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 65

Day 65 - A picture of you at a park

Me and Racey, this was somewhere around junior year of high school. We had nothing to do, but go to the park. Now we only WISH we had time to go to the park together.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 64

Day 64 - A picture of you at work

My little boss when he was only about 2 months old. Now he's almost 11 months old and WALKING all over the place. Time goes by entirely too fast.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 63

Day 63 - A picture of luggage

I would probably pack like this for any trip if I could. I am sooo indecisive and I have SO many clothes that I can never decide what to take, much less what to wear on a day-to-day basis. It's kinda ridiculous. And not to mention SHOES! I could fill up that biggest suitcase with my shoes alone.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 62

Day 62 - A picture of you on a ride

The Harry Potter ride last November. This picture is epic. There were spiders all around us, Kinz was having a panic attack, we were all laughing at her, but at the same time I'm trying to scoot back into my seat because the spiders were too close for comfort.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 61

Day 61 - A picture of you in the fall

After the church's Halloween party/hayride a few years ago. It was so cold that year and everyone froze to death on the hayride.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 60

Day 60 - A picture of you at a sports game

I don't even remember what game this was, but it was Lulu's first Arkansas basketball game :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 59

Day 59 - A picture of you at prom

Senior Prom with Tyler

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 58

Day 58 - A picture of your hair all done

21st Birthday with some of my favorites, Kam, Kait and Racey :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 57

Day 57 - A picture of you in your backyard

In the jumpy at Riley's 3rd birthday party :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 56

Day 56 - A picture of you all bundled up

Just looking at this picture makes me cold. This was at the Liberty Bowl 2010. We cheered our Hogs on to victory. But by the 4th quarter, I think it got down to around 17 degrees. I don't know if you can tell, but Lauren and I have tears in our eyes we're so cold. It took the five hour drive back home that night to actually thaw out. I hate cold weather.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 55

Day 55 - A picture of you with a date

Compared to the 19 years we've been friends, we only dated a short time. And we've been there for each other through all the ups and downs life has thrown at us.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 54

Day 54 - A picture of you on your last vacation

I'm one of the lucky girls. Most of my friends have always dreamed of running off to LA on vacation with their friends. This is something I get to do every year.

So this is me and Bianca in our matchy outfits :)

Anywhere But Here

So I've kinda been slacking on the blogging, but to be honest, I don't wanna bother you with my depression. It's only gotten worse since the last blog, but I have a few things I need to get out.

Do you ever feel like you don't belong? I'm sure just about everyone has felt this at one point or another, so on to question two. Have you ever felt like you don't belong with your own family? I think this is a little less common. Let's be honest, I should've been outta here almost 2 years ago, graduating college and moving on with my life. Instead, I'm still here, helping take care of my family and making my way through my undergrad at an excruciatingly slow pace. Don't get me wrong, I love this extra time I'm spending with my nieces and nephews, because most aunts don't get that luxury.

However, as the days go on, the less I feel like I'm part of this family. I'm not sure if that's on me or them. A little of both, I suppose. My parents have each other, even though my dad isn't here much. And so when they get to see each other, they don't really want to be around anyone else. I'm sure they don't mean it, but when I need to make a trip to Wal-Mart with them, I feel super unwelcome, like it's killing them to take me with them. My sister has her kids, so that's an automatic family unit. Plus she lives with my parents, so that kinda bonds them. Then there's my grandparents, who I live with. Gammy has told me I should move out on countless occasions. Yeah, I would've been gone a LONG time ago if I could've kept my job. I feel more welcome at Kambrye's house than I do here.

So I'm reconsidering my options, because remember those plans A,B,C, and D for Nashville? Yeah, I've given up. I'm done, finished, ain't gonna happen. I can be independent, but I do need help to get where I need to be and I'm not getting it here, so we gotta figure something else out. I'm taking any and all ideas on this matter, so let me know :)

Another thing that goes along with the paragraph before last. So once again, being the nice daughter, I bought my mom this Reba ticket. Aunt T, Nikki, Lauren, her sisters and I think mom are all going are all going, as well. So it's gonna be a super fun night. I was thinking we would take my car when my dad brought it home this weekend, so Gammy and Da-dad would have their van. We could stay the night at Aunt T's or come home that night, fun night. Much to my dismay, my mom had other plans. We're taking the van up there and meeting my dad at Aunt T's, because heaven forbid we just have a girls' night, right? Yeah, so my dad is helping my uncle do something at their house this weekend. So my parents make plans to stay at my aunt's house without even consulting me (see where I'm starting to feel like an outsider?). So this makes my aunt have a full house and I would have to sleep on the floor, which because of my back, I cannot do. Not my aunt's fault, but I think it's inconsiderate my parents would do that to me. When I say something to my mom about it, she tells me I can either find somewhere else to stay or drive home by myself. Driving home by myself after concerts in Tulsa is no big deal to me, I do it all the time. I just find it rude that I buy my mom this ticket just for her to make plans excluding me. I have another aunt and uncle I can stay with, they have made it perfectly clear that I can stay at their house anytime, but I'll probably come home so Gammy and Da-dad won't be home without a vehicle.

Am I being a whiny baby about this? Maybe so, but I'm tired of being walked all over because I'm too nice to speak my mind. I'm probably gonna piss some people off with this, but I'm starting to not care at this point, because they've been pissing me off for awhile now. Sorry I'm not sorry.

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 53

Day 53 - A picture of you in a car

Ta-da!

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 52

Day 52 - A picture of you dressed up

Senior Prom

with Sara, Racey, Kambrye, Ethan, me and Tyler :)

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 51

Day 51 - A picture of you wearing sunglasses

You will rarely see me outside during the day without sunglasses. Even when it's cloudy :)