Time Flies

Wow. These last few weeks have flown by...

Gammy and Da-dad both had a 7-day stay in the hospital. Da-dad for pneumonia, Gammy for a blood clot. Both are doing better on those aspects, not 100%, but definitely better. However, because Gammy was placed on blood thinners, Gammy was not able to get her port placed for her chemo. She was able to start her chemo last Thursday without the port and she's been pretty sick these last few days. So 1 week down, 17 more to go. She had to go back to her regular physician to have her blood tested to make sure the blood thinners are working right.

That's really all I have for right now. I feel like I have a ton to do before I head to Tulsa tomorrow before leaving for L.A. on Wednesday. Like Jeannie says, "I'm gonna leave my troubles behind and not have a care in the world." I'm looking forward to spending a week with my besties :)

New Design

So I took the time to put a new design on my page since the last one was for the 4th of July. A lot has happened this week, but it's late and I'm exhausted because of said things. I will try to do a blog tomorrow or the next day.

July Already

Ah, so almost another week has passed. I can't believe it's July already! That's crazy! So many things have happened, yet I feel like my life is at a bit of a standstill. Gammy had more doctor's appointments, I had wisdom teeth surgery and I started looking at potential living arrangements in Nashville.

Gammy will have her port placement on Friday and chemo is still scheduled to start on the 14th, I believe. This week is once again full of appointments and deadlines. It's just kind of a waiting game on that end.

My surgery went great. I wouldn't say I have been in no pain, but I haven't been in any more pain that I felt before I had the teeth taken out. I can take my pain meds every four hours, but I'm only taking 1 or 2 a day. Other times I just take ibuprofen. So I'm feeling incredibly blessed because of that. The prayers have definitely helped, so thank you to everyone who said one for me. I felt well enough to spend the weekend in Tulsa with my aunt and uncle. We haven't done a lot, but it's better than being stuck in Keota with no car.

And then the "house" hunting. In the midst of everything that's going on, I'm usually spending my days at home with at least one child, but usually two. I usually can't get anything done, not anything that needs to be done anyway. My days are filled with baking cookies and watching Kai-Lan. While I am confident Jaxie will be able to count to ten in Japanese before he can in English, I am also confident that I may be going crazy. So I look forward to the future. I have started looking into real estate in Nashville, because I am positive that is where I will be happiest. On top of that, Riley and I have been spending quite a bit of time together. And when he's not being annoying, he's actually fun to be around.

Anyway, I was looking at houses, condos, apartments, etc. And Riley saw some of them and started asking me questions about why I was looking at houses, so I start to explain to try to explain to him what was going to happen. And he flat out asks me if he can go with me. I thought he was kidding, so I start testing him by telling him we would be 8 hours away (yes, I explained that in a way he understood) and that we wouldn't have Nana, Papa, Gammy or Da-dad around to take care of us or that we would hardly get to see him. Or that he wouldn't get to go to school with Tag, Newt and Gage anymore, but he didn't care. He has a need for adventure, so maybe he'll be my perfect wingman. But here's the kicker...he had one stipulation. He said he didn't want to go back to school, he wanted to do home school. Mom's been talking about home-schooling the kids, so he has this idea in his head. I got that idea out of his head real quick, because I'm going to Nashville to work, so of course he can't be in home school. So I guess we'll see what happens, he really wants to go.

Well, I think that's enough for now. I need to find something else to do for awhie.

Joshua 1:9

I'm going to keep this short and not-so-sweet, but I'm posting so I won't have to tell it 5 million times.

So Gam went to the oncologist today for more tests. They have concluded that she has Stage 2 Invasive Ductal Carcinoma, which is a rapid-moving cancer. Chemo will start July 14th and she will have to go once a week for 18 weeks and then once every three weeks for a year. There were two other things she would have to take every three weeks for 18 weeks also, I didn't really read a whole lot about it. The downside is, I guess because of her age, previous heart problems and the aggressiveness of the treatment, it could cause heart failure.

This scripture is something God has been constantly bringing to me lately. Sometimes I feel like He yells it to me, like He's saying "helloooo, did this verse magically disappear from your Bible this morning or what?!" and other times it's like He puts His arm around me and speaks softly as a parent would do for a frightened child.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. -Joshua 1:9

Lack of Words

So, I've been waiting to make another post. Partially so we had time to tell the family and partially because I honestly haven't been able to bring myself to say it. But since my mom posted it on Facebook and our immediate family has been notified, and I know it will never get easier to say, I guess I will just have to come out and say it.

Gammy had a breast biopsy done a couple weeks ago and we found out last week that it came back positive for cancer. I haven't asked many questions because I'm still kind of in a daze, like, what do you ask? What do you say? Is there a rule book as to how I'm supposed to feel? So many questions that I don't have answers to. She goes for more tests tomorrow and Wednesday and following those tests, we should know more.

In the mean time, say some prayers for us. If you don't pray, keep us in your thoughts. A lot of things have been changing around here and they're changing quick. And if you know me, you know I am not a big fan of change, at least the kind I can't control. I know this is affecting all of us differently and none of us are good about communicating our feelings, so we're just kind of holding our breath for right now.

P.S. I hate to be selfish, but I'm going to have my wisdom teeth extracted on Thursday and I'm terrified, so say an extra prayer for me :)

In all you do, I'll pray for you

So yeah, it's been over a week since I've blogged, but it's been a pretty crazy week. Mostly consumed of running errands and such. The big news is, I'm getting my wisdom teeth out on the 30th and I'm absolutely terrified about it. I'm just glad I will be asleep for it, otherwise I would have a panic attack.

In other news, graduation is exactly 6 months from today and I cannot wait! I am so ready to get out of here, my family is driving me crazy.

So I don't really have much to say on here just because I'm too lazy to recap my exhausting week and a half. But I know some were wondering about the name of my blog and where it came from. If you've heard the saying, you probably realize that it's not really pronounced "Sara" like my name, but "será." It comes from the Spanish phrase "que será, será," which means "whatever will be, will be." I had heard this saying before but a few years ago, it came to me in the form of a Sara Evans song, that really touched my heart. It kind of describes my life, because even though I am still living at home, sometimes I long to go back to the days when life was simple and Mama could fix all of my problems. And I know life isn't going to get easier, I don't believe it's going to get worse, but it's not going to get easier and whatever is meant to be, will always be. No ifs, ands or buts about it, that's just the way life goes. So I created the blog so my friends and family could join me on my life's journey and see where it takes us, because I know it's going to be a great adventure.

So I'll leave you with a little excerpt from the song and if you want to look it up on YouTube or something it's called "Pray For You" by Sara Evans.

Que Será, Será, life goes on
Whatever's meant to be will always be
And baby, what don't kill you will make you strong
Just love the journey that you're on
In all you do, I'll pray for you

CMT Awards

So yeah, I usually will never post twice in one day, but I like making my predictions for music award shows (I usually don't watch award shows for anything other than music). The awards start in about an hour, so here are my predictions...

Video of the Year
• Jason Aldean - "My Kinda Party"
• Kenny Chesney - "The Boys of Fall"
• Lady Antebellum - "Hello World"
• Miranda Lambert - "The House That Built Me"
• Rascal Flatts - "Why Wait"
• Sugarland - "Stuck Like Glue"
• Taylor Swift - "Mine"
• The Band Perry - "If I Die Young"
• Carrie Underwood - "Undo It"
• Zac Brown Band - "Colder Weather"

This is a tough one. I don't remember them ever having this many entries in one category. I would LOVE it if The Band Perry won because they're amazing. However, I'm going to say Miranda's "The House That Built Me."

Male Video of the Year
• Jason Aldean - "My Kinda Party"
• Kenny Chesney - "The Boys of Fall"
• Toby Keith - "Bullets in the Gun"
• Blake Shelton - "Who Are You When I'm Not Looking"
• Keith Urban - "Without You"

For this one, the one I want to win is Jason Aldean. He's one of my absolute favorites. He could surprise us. But I'm going to say that Kenny Chesney will take the win on this one.

Female Video of the Year
• Sara Evans - "A Little Bit Stronger"
• Miranda Lambert - "The House That Built Me"
• Reba McEntire - "Turn On the Radio"
• Taylor Swift - "Mine"
• Carrie Underwood - "Undo It"

This is always one of my favorite categories. The women of country music are pretty much my heroes. It takes a special kind of woman to be a country girl. For the category, I would really love for Sara to win, BUT I'm going to say Miranda will take this one home as well.

Group Video of the Year
• Lady Antebellum - "Hello World"
• Little Big Town - "Little White Church"
• Rascal Flatts - "Why Wait"
• The Band Perry - "If I Die Young"
• Zac Brown Band - "Colder Weather"

Not to show favoritism or anything, but I vote for TBP on this one. They are very much deserving. However, I think Lady A will be taking home this belt buckle.
Duo Video of the Year
• Steel Magnolia - "Last Night Again"
• Sugarland - "Stuck Like Glue"
• The Civil Wars - "Barton Hollow"
• The JaneDear Girls - "Wildflower"
• Thompson Square - "Are You Gonna Kiss Me or Not"

I love belting out some Thompson Square. That song is one of my summer faves, it's just a cute song. As much as I would like them to win, I'm going with Sugarland's "Stuck Like Glue."

USA Weekend Breakthrough Video of the Year
• Lee Brice - "Love Like Crazy"
• Aaron Lewis - "Country Boy"
• Jerrod Niemann - "Lover, Lover"
• The Band Perry - "If I Die Young"
• Thompson Square - "Are You Gonna Kiss Me or Not"

For once, my "want to win" pick and "will win" pick is the same. I'm saying The Band Perry, hands down :)

Collaborative Video of the Year
• Jason Aldean with Kelly Clarkson - "Don't You Wanna Stay"
• Justin Bieber featuring Rascal Flatts - "That Should Be Me"
• Kid Rock featuring Sheryl Crow - "Collide"
• Aaron Lewis featuring George Jones and Charlie Daniels - "Country Boy"
• Loretta Lynn, Miranda Lambert and Sheryl Crow - "Coal Miner's Daughter"

Okay first of all, who knew Justin Bieber and Rascal Flatts did a collaborative video? Have I been living under a rock? Um, Miranda, Sheryl and Loretta's version of Coal Miner's Daughter is amazing. I get chills every time I hear Loretta's voice come in at the end. However, my "will win" pick for this one is Jason Aldean and Kelly Clarkson. No questions asked.

CMT Performance of the Year
(musical performance on a television show, series or variety special on CMT)
• Martina McBride and Train - "A Broken Wing" from CMT Crossroads: Train and Martina McBride
• Reba McEntire - "If I Were a Boy" from Unplugged: Reba
• Darius Rucker and Adele - "Need You Now" from 2010 CMT Artists of the Year
• Keith Urban and John Mayer - "Sweet Thing" from CMT Crossroads: John Mayer and Keith Urban
• Zac Brown Band and Jimmy Buffett - "Margaritaville" from CMT Crossroads: Jimmy Buffett and Zac Brown Band

Okay, if Reba wins, we have failed as a society. I LOVE Reba so, so much, but I cannot stand her version of "If I Were A Boy," and I haven't met anyone who likes it. This is another tough category, I'm really not sure about this one. So I'm going to take a shot in the dark and say Zac Brown Band & Jimmy Buffett. Could be totally wrong though.

Best Web Video of the Year (new for 2011)
(best video created primarily for Internet streaming)
• Jason Aldean - "My Kinda Party" (live from the CMT.com webcast)
• Luke Bryan - "It's a Shore Thing"
• Lady Antebellum - "Stars Tonight"
• Blake Shelton - "Kiss My Country Ass"
• Taylor Swift - "Mine" (live from the Speak Now album release party)

Where do they come up with some of these categories? It's kind of ridiculous. I'm going to say Taylor and leave it at that.
Video Director of the Year
• Deaton Flanigen (award-eligible videos include Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow's "Collide" and the JaneDear Girl's "Wildflower")
• Trey Fanjoy (award-eligible videos include Miranda Lambert's "The House That Built Me" and Blake Shelton's "Who Are You When I'm Not Looking")
• Chris Hicky (award-eligible videos include Carrie Underwood's "Undo It" and Keith Urban's "Without You")
• David McClister (award-eligible videos include The Band Perry's "If I Die Young" and LeAnn Rimes' "Swingin'")
• Roman White (award-eligible videos include Lady Antebellum's "Hello World" and Kellie Pickler's "Makin' Me Fall in Love Again")

Ahh, I have only seen three of these videos, but I'm going with Trey Fanjoy. She's fantastic. Roman could give her a run for her money, but Trey will be the one with the buckle :)

So that's my take, I'll update the post as the night goes by underlining the actual winners