Showing posts with label Jaxie. Show all posts
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Thursday, November 22, 2012

Giving Thanks

As I sit here in the last few hours of this wonderful holiday, I think it's time for me to give a little thanks.

First of all, I'm super thankful that I didn't have much time to sit down and write a blog until 10 o'clock on Thanksgiving night. When the day began at 12:00 AM, I was sitting in a movie theater with my sister, nephew and best friend, watching the end of an era...the last movie to the Twilight Saga. As tears ran down my face (yes, I'm a big baby), I knew I couldn't be happier to be where I was. I was able to get home, get a few hours of sleep before getting up at 9 to get ready for our family tradition.

First, I spent a little while with Jaxie and Lulu, watching the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. Mostly just watching it because the kids were convinced that Summer was going to be IN the parade instead of sitting on the sidelines. After that, we got ready and headed to the Choctaw Nation Community Center in Stigler to celebrate Thanksgiving with Da-dad's part of our family, which is a blessing within itself. Since the matriarch of our family (Charlotte) passed away nearly 2 years ago, getting all of the family together has seemed like a much bigger task than it did in the past. But once again, we (mostly Jennifer) were able to get all of our ducks in a row to celebrate together. We've been doing this for more than half my life, and I can't imagine spending Thanksgiving without them, nor would I want to.

I am ridiculously thankful for my friends, the ones who've stuck by me even in my darkest hour, who put up with me even when I'm being unreasonable and dramatic, and the ones who know how to make hundreds or thousands of miles seem like just around the corner because we talk so much. Amber is the one I can be goofy with, we've been through a lot, but I don't know what I would do without her and her girls. Kaitlin, the one who knows me better than I know myself, the one I can always count on. Kinsey, the person who is most like a sister to me, we fight, bicker, and annoy each other at times, but no matter what, we've managed to work through everything that life has thrown at us. Most of the time, we are silly and talk about random, pointless things. Bianca, the one I go to when I'm feeling down and need encouragement. She's almost always happy, and when you're around her, you can't help but be happy too. Summer, who I can tell anything too, and always knows the right thing to say, and when to say it. She would do just about anything for me, as I would for her. Faith, who is seriously one of my biggest inspirations. She makes me want to strive to be better in all things I do. She is not perfect, by any means, but she puts her all into everything she does, and I look up to her so much for that. She is always there for me, whether we're just talking about dumb stuff, or listening to me complain about people. THANKS to all of you (and for all the rest of my friends too) for being there for me. You all bring something different to the table, and while my relationship with each of you may be different, I love you all the same.

I want to give a huge thanks for my family, especially those who have supported me through this last year. The ones who haven't given up on me and let me make my own decisions, instead of telling me what I "should" be doing or what I could be doing better. I give my all in everything I do, and I won't accept anything less than what I deserve. I have worked hard in school for nearly 19 years, I may have lost my way, but I haven't screwed up, I've always made the decisions I felt were best for me at the time, and I don't regret any of it. Most people my age are married, divorced, married again, have a few kids. And there's nothing wrong with that, but it makes life a little harder. I've chosen to take the road less traveled, and while some people think there's something wrong with me because of it, my family support my decision to not have those things at this moment in time. My Gammy and Da-dad helped take care of me from birth until I was 12, then after that, they took me into their home full-time and raised me, and they continue to take care of me today. While things aren't always easy, I make sure they know that I appreciate them for making that sacrifice to raise me and me sister. My parents have helped me quite a bit over the last year, making things a little easier financially as I search for a job. My sister for letting me be her shadow. I never thought we would be this close, but we are. She supports me in all aspects of my life. My Uncle Bill and Aunt Cheryl have always stood by me and respected my decisions. They give me advice when it comes to decision-making, and I cherish that advice, because they always have my best interest at heart. They've taken me under their wing and done so much for me over the last few years. They've never failed me.

And of course my nieces and nephews, Riley, Jaxie, Lulu, Yazzie, Lizzy and Charleigh. I have so much love for all of them. Sometimes I want to beat their butts, but they've taught me so much about life and how to love unconditionally.

I am also thankful to live in a country where I am free. I know that freedom comes at a price, and I never forget that. I have so many men and women in my life who have fought for my freedom, and that's something I could never thank them enough for.


Friday, October 14, 2011

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 24

Day 34 - A picture of your favorite morning

The first morning I got to spend with my kiddos at Disney World. It's so awesome being able to experience this as a child (okay, I was 15), then getting to come back with Riley, Jaxie and Lulu and see them experience that. It's pretty awesome.


Monday, September 26, 2011

100 Day Picture Challenge - Day 16

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

Riley, Jaxie and Lulu. They show me that life goes way too fast to sweat the small stuff and not live life to the fullest. They inspire me to be a better person.


Sunday, August 28, 2011

I Know, I Know

I've been slacking, BUT in my defense, things have been more hectic than usual. The boys and I all started back to school, NSU on the 15th, KPS on the 18th and Jaxie's pre-school started on the 22nd. So we're trying to adjust schedules and get used to a new routine. Mondays are always up in the air, we're usually running errands or doing something though. Tuesdays after Jaxie gets out of school at noon, we head to his speech therapy. Wednesday is my F2F class, Thursdays are chemo days and Friday-Sunday are recovery days and/or homework days and/or plan-making days.

So I started school on the 15th, I was enrolled in my last 9 hours of my undergrad. At the last minute, they deleted my Capstone course because there was only 3 people enrolled. Lame, right? So I get an e-mail from the professor telling me to enroll in his Insurance Litigation course. I was so confused, but we got it straightened out and basically we're enrolled, but we're not actually taking the class, we're taking our Capstone course and they will replace it on our transcript at the end of the semester. However, I was also enrolled in what is known to be the capstone course for my minor. We were having to plan a full-on convention type meeting, like a real one, not a hypothetical meeting, a real one, complete with correspondence letters and everything. Now, I don't have time for that. Not to mention, he tells us that unless we started planning the meeting over the summer or last spring, we would have to take an incomplete and finish it in the spring. Rude. So I talked to my adviser, as well as financial aid and decided it would be best to not be too stressed this semester, drop the class and take a different one in the spring (there were no more classes available this semester for my minor). So yes, this means I will be extending my college life another semester. I ALMOST felt like I had failed, but I'm still going to be graduating and accomplishing goals, so I don't feel like I have failed. I am definitely accepting defeat for this semester. Well, kinda anyway. Now that I only have 6 hours, I will be able to focus on those classes and do some kick-ass work.

However, we will still be continuing with "Plan A." It's been altered a little to fit the circumstances, but it is still Plan A. So what exactly is this plan, you ask? I will tell you. I will be taking 6 hours of online classes in the spring. Yes, I know I only need 3 credit hours and that is only 1 class. You don't need to tell me that, I know. But if I only take a 3-hour course, I will not be eligible for loans (you have to be enrolled in 6 hours or more to be eligible). At this point, I don't really need the loans, but they make it to where I have extra money in my pocket and that extra money is being used for part of the plan. So I will probably take a class I've already taken, but made a bad grade (C or worse) in and work harder to make a better grade so the bad grade will be taken off my transcript and my GPA will be higher. Then I will also be taking an HTM (my minor) course to finish up my degree plan. Both classes will be taken online. Therefore, I will be able to go ahead with the original Plan A of moving to Nashville in January (hence the loans so I can have money to move). I will be able to come back in May for graduation, because let's be honest, if I didn't walk in graduation, my family would murder me.

And what are you going to do when you get to Nashville? The million-dollar question. So the job-market is tough, especially if you're straight out of college with little-to-no experience in your field. So I'm not sugar-coating it, I know I'm not going to land an amazing job at a top law firm in Nashville, then just move out there and be happy for the rest of my life. Not gonna happen. I am honestly not even going to look for jobs in the legal field until I actually get there. Well, I kinda am, but most of them want like 3-5 years experience and stuff like that. We all know Nashville is a tourist town and someone with a degree in Hospitality and Tourism Management (which is my minor) wouldn't have a problem finding a job there. Gaylord Entertainment owns half the town and they always have a million job openings, a lot of which only require a high school diploma and 1 year experience in customer service. Not only do I have both, I know quite a bit more about the tourism industry than someone off the street, putting me ahead of the game. So I plan on getting a job with them, moving out there, then looking for a job in the legal field. Fingers crossed this plan works out, if not I have Plans B, C, and D already mapped out (would you expect anything less of me?), but that's not something we'll talk about until we have to use one of those plans. Eventually I will prep for my LSAT and get a high enough score to get into law school at Vanderbilt :) Que serĂ¡, serĂ¡, right?

Now that I've made this blog ten times longer than I had originally planned, I'm outta here.